Shellie's Beautiful Mess

I would like to meet my great-grandmother, the one that died on the same day as my grandmother's birth. I never knew that until my grandmother died. I wish I had known what she was like. My grandma never talked about her family. It was like she was trying to hide her tragic life. I wish she hadn't. I'm inspired by tragic beginnings that end beautifully. I would like to know what her family was really like. I didn't even know that her mom didn't raise her. Why did I never ask? Probably because I was a kid and had things to do. I wish I had been more interested in my relatives' lives. I know kids who were. I wanted to run around and I didn't want to slow down.

Hopefully life will slow down a bit this summer and I can write something other than updates on my life. I've decided I am definitely going to Eastern Washington University. At this point it's just a matter of when. If I can't get financial aid, I'll have to figure out another way to pay for it. But one way or another, I'm going. I've completed and turned in all my assignments for my class so far, so that's a good sign. Now that I'm into Algebra in the math class it's a lot harder. There are some things I'm still trying to figure out. But little by little I'm starting to figure out how to do each thing. It's a process. I refuse to give up. That is one good thing about my stubborn personality. Which is why I know I'm going back to school. There's nothing else I've ever really wanted to do. So, I'm just going for it. So, I'll be in my 50's by the time I graduate. Who cares. It's something I've always wanted a